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For You ​by Joanna Sternberg

 

(humming)

 

With a smile like yours you could get away with murder

So I will not trust you no I will not trust you

 

With a face like yours you will know no suffering

I can't connect with you
I can't connect with you
I can't connect although I'll try

I'll try each time I won't know why

You'll swat me away like a fly
I can't connect with you

 

(humming)

 

With a voice like yours you could put the birds to shame

But who are you to blame?
No you can't be to blame

 

With two eyes like yours you could melt the rising sun

So I won't talk to you
No I won't talk to you
I will not talk I will not walk and you won't have a clue

 

(humming)

 

You will always have anyone that you could want

And you won't be alone
You'll never be alone
You'll never be at all like me

You'll never be alone

 

You will always have anything that you could want

But what will that get you?
Now what will that get you?
It will get nothing I bet

That's what it will get you.

 

 

Step Away​ by Joanna Sternberg

 

CHORUS

 

Step away from me now
I can't see you no more
Cause there's not a thing that I can do I haven't done before

 

Step away from me dear
It's so easy to see
Cause anyone who's watching knows

You're too beautiful for me

 

I got too close too fast

Like I always do
I could see it coming

Yes I could couldn't you?

I tried to kill it

But got smacked in my face

Now I'm trembling and trying

To get out of this place

 

CHORUS

 

Step away from me now
I can't see you no more
Cause there's not a thing that I can do I haven't done before
Step away from me dear
It's so easy to see
Cause anyone who's watching knows

You're too beautiful for me

 

I can't even look you
In the eyes anymore
Every day you look much better

Than you once looked before
I am out of control

And you don't have a clue

But at least I'll admit it

Like I always do

 

CHORUS

 

Step away from me now
I can't see you no more
Cause there's not a thing that I can do

I haven't done before
Step away from me dear
It's so easy to see
Cause anyone who's watching knows

You're too beautiful for me

 

 

How People Work ​by Joanna Sternberg

 

(humming)

You don't say hi to me so I won't say hi to you

You won't smile at me so I won't smile at you So, so what's next?
So, so what's next?

 

I see you standing there, you see me standing here

Thoughts of approaching you are filling me with fear So, so what's next?
So, so what's next?

 

CHORUS

 

So, so what's next?
In the scheme of things
I will never
Though my heart, it stings
And my paranoia's chasing me

Although we both must know

That we are far to stubborn to

Ever let our feelings show

 

Sometimes I find that I'm talking to myself
If I said something wrong so much for mental health

Why'd I say that?

Why'd I say that?

 

I look over at you seeming so strong and cool If I go talk to you, I'll look like such a fool
So I won't go
So I won't go

 

CHORUS

 

So, I won't go.
I will let you be.
We may never
Get the chance to see
If a conversation builds to shatter
All we thought we knew
If you do not say hi to me, and I will not say hi to you

And I will not say hi to you And I will not say hi to you

 

(humming)
 

 

Run ​by Joanna Sternberg

 

Run
Run away from yourself
Run away from your health
Keep on running and go nowhere

 

Am I always to blame
How I'm always the same
If I try will I even care?

 

CHORUS

 

Why do I run from me that way?

Why do I run from me that way?

Oh yes, I'll run. I'll run away.

 

So
Now the answer is no

Though I know I'll still go
I will run from you forever

 

How am I sposed' to know

Which direction to go
So that I can get better?

 

CHORUS

 

Why do I run from me that way?

Why do I run from me that way?

Oh yes, I'll run. I'll run away.

 

 

Busy Being Busy​ by Joanna Sternberg

 

I'm so busy being busy
I am growing awful tired of me
Staring into space, sweat swarming my face

Looking out onto the distance over yonder

Where I am much stronger
Able to say no just able to say no

 

I work so hard that I forget me
I forget just who I want to be
I'm so tired and beat, got no time to eat
Got no time to stop and think of what I'm doing

Realize I am choosing
Not to say no
Not to say no

 

CHORUS

 

I can't remember a thing that I did right
Looking for something but nothing is in sight
Nothing
Wishing that I could swim up onto the shore but I'm drowning

 

Drinking cups and cups of coffee

Barely gives me any energy

When I want to quit
When I feel like shit

When the pressure's almost making me keel over I'm such a pushover
Never say no
I'll never say no

 

Never Again​ by Joanna Sternberg

 

I can remember
Everything that happened
I don't expect you to
Close your eyes and see
I wish I knew you
Back when you were lonely

Never again lonely
Now that you're with me

 

 

Sometimes we hide
Hide inside of bedrooms
I loved to hide
Until I met you
Thanks for your smile

Many smiles it brought me

Many smiles it brought me

Now I can see

 

CHORUS

 

Everything you've done for me
And all the smiles your smile brought me

Can't end
How can it end?

 

It's always big news
When it's the first time
After the first time
Nothing means that much it seems

I lost my mind
Now it's hard to find

I won't forget you

You will forget me

 

CHORUS

I know what you're gonna do
And then I know I can't see you again

Never again

 

(humming)

Human Magnet Song​ by Joanna Sternberg

I felt your magnet pull me near
As my whole body quaked with fear

The minute I met you

Your human magnet had a force

That I was blinded by of course

Now I must forget you

 

CHORUS

 

This moment of our lives Will not happen again
I wish to be apart
From the moment we began

 

I know that we don't get along

But no strength is as strong

As our magnets

 

Though I am tempted to break free To be divided by a sea
I know i can't free me

 

CHORUS

 

This moment of our lives Will not happen again
I wish to be apart
From the moment we began

 

(humming) 

Goodbye

When you said goodbye, you forgot to cry

While I drowned in my own tears, counting all our years

Your blue eyes were dry

So I did not try

To make you say that you would stay

Another day with me

Goodbye my love, goodbye forever

Goodbye my love goodbye

Being your friend is something that I cannot begin to try

I hope that all your dreams will blossom, and grow up past the sky

so goodbye my love, goodbye forever

Goodbye my love goodbye

Now that you are gone, how will I go on?

My nightmares have all come true

Living without you

I'll leave you alone, to be on your own

But my love will stay with you

No matter what you do

Goodbye my love, goodbye forever

Goodbye my love goodbye

Being your friend is something that I cannot begin to try

I hope that all your dreams will blossom, and grow up past the sky

so goodbye my love, goodbye forever

Goodbye my love goodbye

goodbye my love, goodbye forever

Goodbye my love goodbye

goodbye my love, goodbye forever

Goodbye my love goodbye

This Is Not Who I Want To Be

Rain pouring down my head pounds from the sound

I'm stuck to the bed with brain zaps in my head

I can't fall asleep I cannot stay awake

I cry till I weep I shiver and I shake

I think of you I think of you

I think of you it's all that I can do

And lord knows I try I'm trying hard to change

I wish I knew why I always stay the same

This is not who I want to be

This is not who I want to be

I am slowly killing me

No, This is not who I want to be

I wish I was scared of poison pills and pain

I wish I was scared of damage to my brain

But finally I see I should be scared of me

How'd I come to be my own worst enemy?

This is not who I want to be

This is not who I want to be

I am slowly killing me

No, This is not who I want to be

 

The Winds

I sense danger in the winds that carry me to you

They're strong and cold and are full of fear 

I reach out for something safe to hold so they can't

Take me straight to your door but there's nothing here

The winds blow me away, it's windy every day

I'm nothing but their prey, the winds blow me away

I wish that I could stand strong and tall 

So that nothing could lead me to tremble and fall

But every time I try to be strong

The winds carry me along

Deep inside there's a divide of two who control me

They don't get along and they disagree

One of them thinks I deserve a sad life of pain

While the other one just wants me to be free

The winds blow me away, it's windy every day

I'm nothing but their prey, the winds blow me away

I wish that I could stand strong and tall 

So that nothing could lead me to tremble and fall

But every time I try to be strong

The winds carry me along

But every time I try to be strong

The winds carry me along

What Have You Done To Me?

 

I’ve always been afraid

Of making mistakes I've made

Should have left

But I always stayed

I’ve always been afraid

 

Since I was very small

No one liked me at all

And I cried

But you ignored my call

Since I was very small

 

What have you done?

What have you done?

To me

To me

‘Cause something’s wrong

It’s been wrong for so long

What have you done to me?

 

What have you done?

What have you done?

I have nowhere left to run

I need help but can’t trust anyone

What have you done to me?

 

I let them all hurt me

They hurt me so badly

That’s the way you taught me how to be

I let them all hurt me

 

What have you done?

What have you done?

To me

To me

‘Cause deep inside

Two things just can’t agree

What have you done to me?

 

What have you done?

What have you done?

I have nowhere left to run

I need help but can’t trust anyone

What have you done to me?

What have you done to me.

Don't You Ever

I always say I'm done with trying

But then I try some more

I don't feel right inside my body

Never felt right before

Never felt that I was a lady

Never felt like a man

You're not the first to think I'm crazy

How could you understand

But don't you ever feel like no one really knows you?

Don't you ever feel like no one ever will?

Don't you ever feel like no one will ever love you?

Don't you dare feel that you are alone

All of my thoughts are too distracting

Most of my dreams have died

Lately I'm scared of interacting

That's why I hide inside

I sleep and sleep all through the night

I sleep all through the day

I wish it didn't feel so right

Sleeping my life away

But don't you ever feel like no one really knows you?

Don't you ever feel like no one ever will?

Don't you ever feel like no one will ever love you?

Don't you dare feel that you are alone

Don't you dare feel that you are alone

Nothing Makes My Heart Sing

Something died in me years ago

I've been trying to find it each place I go

Never thought it could go away

I cry tears of sorry for it night and day

For nothing makes my heart sing

Not since long ago

Something used to lift me up

A dream I used to know

Now that dream has faded

Tell me where'd it go

How I long to sing and laugh and love

Like many years ago

You lit light up inside my heart

Many years ago

'Till we had to part

Trauma's filled up my body now

I can't get it out

'Cause I don't know how

For nothing makes my heart sing

Not since long ago

Something used to lift me up

A dream I used to know

Now that dream has faded

Tell me where'd it go

How I long to sing and laugh

How I long to sing and laugh

How I long to sing and laugh and love

Like many years ago

 

 

My Angel

Oh my angel

Darling angel

You're my angel

Come back to my open arms

How I loved you

Always loved you

I still love you

Come back to my open arms

I see your eyes shine

Once they were mine

So I'll cry and whine

Come back to my open arms

You're still out there

Out there somewhere

I'll always care

Come back to my open arms

You Have Something Special

Before it was hard to see how badly they were treating me

They called me ugly and they made me feel so unworthy

Unworthy of love

Unworthy of love

Unworthy of love

You have something special please don't throw it away

They will try to hurt you with the words they say

Words that string and words that slay

Words that can turn pink to grey

You've been walking miles trying to find your way

You've been singing sad songs every single day

I've been singing sad songs too

I've been hurting just like you

People that I loved and knew did not know me or love me

I put them up in the sky they were so high above me

They did not love me

They did not love me

They did not love me

You have something special please don't throw it away

They will try to hurt you with the words they say

Words that string and words that slay

Words that can turn pink to grey

You've been walking miles trying to find your way

You've been singing sad songs every single day

I've been singing sad songs too

I've been hurting just like you

Trying To Say No

I am never trysting anyone, that part of my heart is lost and gone

Promises unkept depressed and under slept

Always wondering why I never see it coming

People sure are something

I will never know just why I can't say no

Spending time with you was bad for me

I let you in my life easily

I saw warning signs but I didn't mind

Cause I figured I'm a beggar not a chooser

Even with abusers

Never saying no I'll never say no

Everything that happens starts and ends the same

I should know by now that I'm the one to blame

Why do I

Give my heart out just to know that one day

I will cry and cry

I do not wish harm to anyone

Sorry that it's time that you are gone

I can't be your friend

It will never end

Friends don't put their friends in such traumatic danger

Now you're just a stranger

And so on I'll go

Just trying to say no.

 

I Gave It All Away

I gave it all away

I gave it all away

I've nothing left to offer 

There's no reason to stay

So go and run along now be happy and be free

I gave it all away dear, there's no love left for me

No there is no love left for me

My stomach is in knots

My chest is tight with pain

My thoughs won't stop repeating

My eyes are full of rain

All I have left is trauma that lives in my body

I gave it all away here there's nothing left for me

No there is nothing left for me.

(a chorus of humming)

I know it was my fault, I should have just said no

But if things were that simple I wouldn't feel so low

You wouldn't see me crying and sitting on the floor

I gave it all away here don't come around no more

Don't come around no more

Don't come around no more.

 

People Are Toys To You

I'm so glad I met you, you helped me see

Just how very much I hate me

Now I know I've always been this way

Made a list of the things you used to say

I know it was also my fault too

I agreed to all you put me through

When you're in it you can't see whats going on

Now I see that everything was wrong

People are toys to you 

You'll play and play with one 'till you're bored and through

You may want it back when it's gone and flew

'Cause people are toys to you

Everyday you'd change your mind about me

You blamed me for being unhappy

At first you like me some when I was shiny and new

Just like all the others you've done this to

You said you stayed 'cause you felt bad for me

How sweet of you to call me charity

And maybe part of me did agree

That I deserved your pity

 

People are toys to you 

You'll play and play with one 'till you're bored and through

You may want it back when it's gone and flew

'Cause people are toys to you

 

People are toys to you 

You'll play and play with one 'till you're bored and through

You may want it back when it's gone and flew

'Cause people are toys to you

I Scared You Away

I come on too strong

I talk for too long

I wrote you too many songs

I scared you away

Away

Scared you away

Do I do this on purpose?

Or am I too nervous?

I'm here below the surface

I scared them all away

Away

Scared them all away

Maybe I think I don't deserve love

I know I think I don't deserve love

But I have so much to give

Have so much to give

Have so much to give

Have so much to give

I act like I'm crazy

And nothing can phase me

Then I go home and cry and cry

I scared them all away

Away

I scared them all away

Away

scared them all away

I Forgot What It's Like

Two years ago

I used to know

A feeling inside my heart 

That made it glow

Now things have changed

My heart's estranged

I ask it to come back

But it says no

I forgot what it's like to like

I forgot what it's like to love

I forgot what it is to have someone be the only thing I'm thinking of

I'm not sure that I want it back

I think I might have had enough

I forgot what it's like to like

I forgot what it's like to love

I feel at home

When I'm alone

No one can hurt me when I'm

On my own

I've lost all hope

Learned how to cope

My heart's not frozen

It's turned into stone

I forgot what it's like to like

I forgot what it's like to love

I forgot what it is to have someone be the only thing I'm thinking of

I'm not sure that I want it back

I think I might have had enough

I forgot what it's like to like

I forgot what it's like to love

I forgot what it's like to like

I forgot what it's like to love

If I Could Talk To You

Your first impression of me was all wrong

And so was the second and still it goes on

If I wasn't nervous I'd know what to do

If I could talk to you

If I could talk to you

I've been told I'm ugly so why should I try?

You'll find someone better as the days run by

I'll leave you alone but I wouldn't be through

If I could talk to you

If I could talk to you

I see so much beauty inside everyone

But as for me I can only see none

You are the one who I'd show this song to

If I could talk to you

If I could talk to you

I wish I liked me the way that I like you

If I could talk to you

If I could talk to you

Pimba

 

My name is Pimba I'm the littlest penguin

I get so chilly in the freezing cold show

Of all the penguins I am sometimes ignored

But I know what I know what I know

What I know

I know what I know what I know

 

I said I'm Pimba so I guess now you know me

I'm from an iceberg at the edge of the sea

I have 9 brothers and 19 sisters

I am small but that don't mean a thing

Not a thing!

I am small but that don't mean a thing

 

Hear my cry

Hear my song

I am pimba

I am pimba

Hear me sing 

And hear it ring

I am Pimba penguin of the sea

 

My name is Pimba I'm the littlest penguin

I like to sing as I swim through the sea

I like to skate on the slippery ice 

And I know what I know what I know

And I know that it is time for me to go